Life is a maze and love is a riddle♥

纸飞机快飞吧抛开烦恼自有解答
{Friday, June 24, 2011}

I feel like I have eczema, D: Its been a week since the end of OBS and I'm still scratching and itching from the numerous vicious mosquito bites I've collated from the camp. -.-

On a side note, today marks the end of the pre-departure programme I've been having for the past 3.5days and as I said to Theo while on the way home, I don't know when I'll actually meet those guys again! :O But I guess its okay cause I'll be constantly connecting with them through our facebook group. (: We're the whackiest bunch ever!

This is truly a growing process - the whole meeting of people, communicating and understanding them and through that, learning important lessons from their own personal experiences - I guess that I've changed a little for the past 2 weeks. I just like the feeling of knowing I have people who "wont leave you behind"! (:

Random as it may be, after 4 days of drinking milk tea during our tea breaks, I am HIGHLY addicted to it and I'm going to miss it tmr! Gosh, for the first time, I truly understand the addiction to milk tea. But really, that tea was not like the milk tea sold in bubble tea stores, that was warm, surprisingly sweet to the right point tea! GAWK, when can I ever drink that kind of tea again!

I so need to make time for people around me; I must master the act of balancing my social life and my busy 'work' life!

9:31 PM

Fear is an illusion.
{Saturday, June 18, 2011}

I never looked at the consequences of missing a big shot. Why? Because when you think about the consequences you always think of a negative result.

If I’m going to jump into a pool of water, even though I can’t swim, I’m thinking about being able to swim at least enough to survive. I’m not jumping in thinking to myself, “I think I can swim, but maybe I’ll drown.” If jumping into any situation, I’m thinking I’m going to be successful. I’m not thinking about what happens if I fail.

But I can see how some people get frozen by that fear of failure. They get it from peers or from just thinking about the possibility of a negative result. They might be afraid of looking bad or being embarrassed. That’s not good enough for me.

I realised that if I was going to achieve anything in life, I had to be aggressive. I had to get out there and go for it. I don’t believe you can achieve anything by being passive. I know fear is an obstacle for some people, but it’s an illusion for me.

Once I’m there, I’m not thinking about anything except what I’m trying to accomplish. Any fear is an illusion. You think something is standing in your way, but nothing is really there. What is there is an opportunity to do your best and gain some success. If it turns out my best isn’t good enough, then at least I’ll never be able to look back and say I was too afraid to try. Maybe I just didn’t have it. Maybe I just wasn’t good enough. There’s nothing to be afraid of either. Failure always made me try harder the next time.

That’s why my advice has always been to “Think positive” and find fuel in failure. Sometimes failure actually just gets you closer to where you want to be. If I’m trying to fix a car, every time I try something that doesn’t work, I’m getting closer to finding the answer. The greatest inventions in the world had hundreds of failures before the answers were found.

I think fear sometimes comes from a lack of focus or concentration, especially in sports. If I stood at the free-throw line and thought about 10 million people watching me on the other side of the camera lens, I couldn’t have made anything.

So I mentally tried to put myself in a familiar place. I thought about all those times I shot free throws in practice and went through the same motion, the same technique that I had used thousands of times. So you relax and perform. After that you can’t control anything anyway. It’s out of your hands, so don’t worry about it.

It’s no different than making a presentation in the business world or doing a report for school. If you did all the things necessary, then it’s out of your hands. Either the clients liked the presentation or they didn’t. It’s up to the client, the buyer or the teacher.

I can accept failure. Everyone fails at something. But I can’t accept not trying. That’s why I wasn’t afraid to try baseball. I can’t say, “Well, I can’t do it because I’m afraid I may not make the team.” That’s not good enough for me. It doesn’t matter if you win as long as you give everything in your heart and work at it 100%.

Fear is an illusion.

-Michael Jordan.

12:03 AM

Swan lake
{Tuesday, June 14, 2011}

Had a filling lunch with qr and jing today @ barracks before heading to botanic gardens nearby to walk/take photos! Jing is flying on saturday alrdy! D: Gosh, how time flies!

OBS tmr. On my way home, I psychoed myself to spend the next 3 days to my v best since I have to do it, so I might as well do it optimistically!!!

Its slightly past 9 now, going to shower, do my final packing, call nel and sleep early!!

Bye! (for the next 3 days)

8:59 PM

Not a trace
{Sunday, June 12, 2011}

I'm being stupid now HAHA using both my laptop and desktop.

I had a good dinner with my fellow colleagues on friday, pure spammage till I was so full! But I realised it was a good bonding time cause we hardly get to HTHT at work!

Yesterday was a crazy day I was so tired! Taught tuition in the morning, went for my OBS briefing, watched x-men with nel (Y)!! and headed to the PC fair.

I HEREBY DECLARE MY UTMOST LOVE FOR X-MEN. Honestly, I've been an absolute fan since I was young and the movie was so good! :D LOVE x-men to bits and pieces! X-men > batman! :D

Anw, tons of people in the PC fair and we met quite a few people too! It was crazy walking about trying to figure out which laptop to get but in the end I finally got it at a pretty good deal so that's good! Headed to fish and co for dinner and bnj for dessert yum! (:

Anw, my next week is really packed, URGH, and I really can't wait for 1st July to come.

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJY! :D

It was awesome chatting w you just now, please be less busy so the next time I plan sth you can actually be there!!!

Okay, I wanted to pack for OBS today but ah HECK. I feeling lazy!

3:06 PM

Nuaaaa
{Thursday, June 09, 2011}

Feeling rather tired now because I haven't been sleeping well the past few nights (as usual! :C) I tried to sleep slightly later and ended up only waking up once in the middle of the night but in the end I was still feeling the fatigue in the day! D: Damn my sleeping pattern!

Went to get my fitness assessed last night, going to have lunch with fellow colleagues @ Seoul Garden tmr, going for pre-departure briefing, catching x-men and going IT fair on saturday; my days are packed this month! What with the pre-departure programmes and all. It is v tiring I swear, to have to settle something every night! Like now, I have to settle some Imperial stuff, gosh. D: And I still haven't decided on my accomodation -.-

P/S: Damien, if you see this, can you tell me what you're choosing/you've chosen!! Some help needed here! Thanks in advance! (:

Okay rawr, I don't get how I'm supposed to give my passport details and upload my stuff. -.-

Its 945pm now, shall go grab a snack and watch my show, rawr feeling irascible now!

9:30 PM

T.T
{Monday, June 06, 2011}

WHY IS MY PRE-DEPARTURE PROGRAMME OBS?!

Did everyone honestly had fun in OBS in secondary 3?

Cause honestly, I didn't, not really.

Let's just talk abt the things I rmbed from then.

#1: I think I was in Tenzing/Tenzine/sth like that! and the most memorable thing that happened got to be the fact that we trekked for 10km only, carrying our freaking 10kg haversacks only to find ourselves back to where we started!!!! >(

#2:I had tons of mosquito bites, somehow they just love my blood, and no amount of repellent could helped me. I rmb Jasmine declaring that the repellent her brother from army will definitely work!

#3: We failed in our rice cooking!! So it was disgusting.

#4: Me and wingyau had to take our maggiemee first cause we don't eat MSG.

#5: I stank. We didn't get to shower for more than a day and I rmbed feeling damn relieved after using the powder Melissa and Png brought. (DEFINITELY BRINGING THOSE OVER!!!)

#6: A lot of pots washing to do!!

#7: Math to be used, we had to count our tent hooks and I rmbed losing one in the pitch dark jungle - my only thought then was DAMN IT!!!

#8: No jetty jump!

#9: I got sunburnt on the back of my hands cause I applied sunblock everywhere except that area. (Of course, once bitten, twice shy!)

#10: Let's not forget scalp burnt!! (Eh, do people actually apply sunblock to their scalp?! -.-)

#11: I was so tired, I slept from 2-11 the moment I came back!!

#12: Sleep was impossible in the jungle, what with the bumpy surfaces and the fear of ants creeping into the tents.

And I can go on and on, but I guess you get the idea. How can anyone call this fun?!

ARGH, but after listing down all of the above, I've decided to think positively. At least I can,

#1: Not volunteer to read the map.

#2: Get some bloody strong repellent from somewhere!!!!

#3: Learn how to cook rice without using a rice cooker beforehand?

#4: still take my maggiemee without the MSG. :D

#5: BRING POWDER, LOADS LOADS LOADS!!!

#6: get used to pot washing. :O

#7: Improve my brain, which has degenerated over the past 6-7 months.

#8: Okay, so not doing jetty jump!

#9: Apply sunblock on every exposed area, duh!

#10: huh, must I wear a cap! D:

#11: I can still sleep my day away when I come back!

#12: Okay, is there any ant repellent available?!

But whatever it is, I can always hope for Camp A. I know the people there got to eat in the canteen (unfair much!) and well, mine is only 3D2N. They shldn't be treating us too badly, right?

-CROSSING FINGERS-

7:49 PM

I'll pin you to my heart
{Sunday, June 05, 2011}

Shall talk about the week!

First 3 days of work was spent waiting for thursday to come - we were all wishing for haiyu to come back quick because things were getting stressful with all the decision making we had to do plus additional workload!

So on thursday I was damn glad when she came back!!! :D With all the food of course, heehee. Currently, I can't wait to be unemployed. I'm getting sick of my 830-530 job, I would have something with flexible hours so that I can work when I feel like it and stop when I don't, without worrying about not earning any moolah! :C Plus friends around me are mostly unemployed? WHAT FUN I SWEAR! D: So I'm in fact counting down to 30th June already!!! Not including the days I'm taking off for my pre-departure programmes, I currently have 12 more working days. What joy, seriously!!! Which means that after this week I'll only have 7 more working days HAHA, YES I CANNOT WAIT!! Not like my job is boring but the problem is, I have to do the same old thing every day and Dr Wong is overseas, so I can't assist him at all (my fav thing to do actl!). So yes, I am feeling sian! And I have this sudden urge to work in retail, IDK why!

Went to play pool with Ivy, qr, tc and jonj on saturday! Okay, so it was at some ulu serangoon place which I've never been before but the pool table is good and v little disturbance because we were in a country club! I had a lot of fun playing and laughing hahaha, guys we got to do it again! (: Then off to sengkang to meet nel (v far from home, I know!) and I had fun feeding fishes and birds. (: I realised sengkang has a lot of land that is pretty much unused?! A lot of potential for development, seriously!

Currently, I'm having trouble deciding on what kind of accommodation I want. Somehow, I'm okay with having a roommate and okay with not having one. I just can't decide!! And the deadline is 29th July so I'm procrastinating! :( I know I shouldn't but... honestly!!! I'm okay with not going for the best (too ex!) and I would rather not live so near school (20 mins away is fine!). URGH!!

Also, by the time I'm unemployed, my friends are probably getting rdy for school to start and all! D: I guess I'll be staying @ home to learn to cook and go grocery shopping with my mum! Actually I can't wait to learn how to cook, it will be fun! (:

Right now I have about 1.5hrs more before I sleep, shall go paint my nails! (:

And GSS is here, time to hit the stores!

12:25 PM