QIANWEN!♥
NINTEEN
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I like singing myself silly, meaningful lyrics, red, baking, smileys, cakes, rum & raisins, taking long walks, observing people, reading, change of heart, baby blues, running, making new friends, lying down and watching clouds go by, chatting with friends, traveling around singapore, eating good food, glass jars, daisies, swings, daydreaming, going to places I've never been before, the smell of rain & anything pretty.
up+date
{Saturday, July 31, 2010}
Do you know the word 'update' came from putting 'up' and 'date' together?
Another week has passed and once again, I really have nothing much to say about my school life. I want time to go really slow because there's still so much to be done but the procrastinator is trying to get out and sometimes I'm really so tired I wonder where everyone else get their energy from. It is getting stressful as time pass and I can forsee myself having insomnia in time to come when all I can think about is revision, prelims and As and nothing else.! :(
I know people don't wanna come here just to see my rant, but then again, who has the time to visit this place?!
The only addition to my life now is the spam of university talks, fairs and students who have taken up so and so scholarships and went to so and so school. Although I must admit it has been helpful because I have kind of decided already. After Guirong's talk with us yesterday about NUS Medicine, I went to look up on courses related to my interest again and find out the differences between pharmacology, pharmacy and medicinal chemistry. Honestly, pharmacy is not as appealing to me as pharmacology and medicinal chemistry, and we all know there is a stereotype in our brain every single time we come across the word 'pharmacist'. The first person you think of is that lady or guy behind the counter who's sitting down there doing nothing until someone comes to her/him for medicine and well, he/she just dispenses them. What they fail to see is how tedious the course for this profession is and I don't want others to undermine the work of a pharmacist if I'm forced to become one. Still, I'm hoping to clinch the A*STAR scholarship so I can study medicinal chem in UK. Yeah, after doing intensive research ytd, I've decided that a UK education is what suits me best and despite what Mr Ng said about specialisation, I've decided that not being too specialised may be a good thing. All I need now is $$$ to get me onto the plane there and of course, the acceptance from the school which requires LOADS of work. :( But so far so good, at least I am no longer really considering USA (okay except Michigan and some other, but that requires another night of intensive research). I guess I just have to wish myself luck since we all know that your future never goes the way you plan it to be.
Yesterday's GSK talk may have been pathetically small and the speaker was actually my Centad Mentor (O.O surprise surprise) but he has once again shown me his love for GSK and research. He really is a v passionate scientist who has strong opinions on issues but he keeps them to himself because he believes in being objective. All I know from ytd is that YES, I WANT TO WORK IN RESEARCH! So I need to buck up because the first step is awesome prelim grades.
We also completed our H3 syllabus yesterday (FINALLY!) and I started thinking back to how once we were so depressed by our progress we were contemplating on giving up and that was only at REACTION MECHANISMS!, which is like the second topic or something, hahahha. I'm so glad we didn't and I'm happy that I've grown closer to classmates and I'm thankful for having them with me during every single tutorials and lectures! :) Tutorials have always been fun and funny, especially with the rest of my classmates, they are a fun bunch!, and lectures are always spent attempting to either understand or not fall asleep while understanding. Hahahs. It's great, really, because I've gained more friends and it's nice to know that while I'm struggling with H3 (even though I love it) there are others with me. We're all in this together and I believe that at the end of the day we'll be able to get good grades for H3! Jiayou everyone! :)
4 more weeks to prelims, I haven't done much at all! GAWD.
9:36 PM
Not enough emoticons invented in my life.
{Sunday, July 25, 2010}
Just looked at my results on ISP, Mrs Quek, 我真的对不起你！Next time I'll choose a better essay question, either that or I must stop writing crap! :( At the rate I'm going I'll never get even a C for A levels! :( & I've let Ms Wong down too but I think for chemistry I should just go knock my head on the wall, WTF, what kind of crap result is this!?
Anyway this week has been pretty okay even though the whole prelims is coming idea is setting in like shit. It feels really crap when I start thinking about all the things I need to do for the upcoming prelims but I'm always at the lost as to where to start. :(
Caught Inception on wednesday though and it was awesomely too ingenious for me, hahahs. Okay, it's great, I'll say it's worth that 5 stars in Straits Times simply because of the script itself. The person who wrote it is a genius, but I guess if he/she wants better audience, they should make things clearer. Either that or I was really dumb that I have to reflect on the movie after it ended so I can put pieces together and see the whole picture.
"You’re waiting for a train. A train that will take you far away. You can’t be sure where it will take you. But it doesn’t matter - because we’ll be together.”
So far, I'm still trying to make the most out of my time but it still doesn't feel like I'm doing enough. Oh guard.
Has anyone else seen the Mister Potato Ad on the home page of my blog? It's retardly funnily stupid, haha.
9:35 PM
Me in LOST
{Sunday, July 18, 2010}
I guess most people should have gained from today's scholarship fair but I'm wondering if anyone is as lost as me now, hahas. I still cannot decide on UK or US because both have their pros and cons and I simply can't give value to them, i.e. I can't weight them. So I'm lost, and there's still so much research to do, not just about the course but about the school, the environment, the people etc etc. All I know is I don't want to end up at some countryside. Which reminds me of what this guy from Purdue University told me today. "There are farms around the school." I'm sorry but I'm not a farm around the school kind of person, I want a city life but an exposure to the country side at the same time. But other than knowing this, I don't know what I want. Oh wait, I do know one more thing, I don't want to study in Singapore.
Weekends are always wasted for me, I feel stupid for my lack of time management.!!!! :( & my results have just further proved my stupidity. -.-
6 more weeks to prelims.! :(
10:31 PM
ROFL II
{Tuesday, July 13, 2010}
Going home has never been so funny!
I was at the lift lobby waiting for the lift with this guy who looked about my age and we entered the lift together. Then I pressed for the 11th floor and the guy didn't do a thing. So I started wondering if he had forgotten to press and I just kept looking at him the whole time while the lift was heading to the 11th floor, since I was standing behind him. For the whole minute I started wondering about why he didn't press a single button and I was tempted to ask him about it. Then I started thinking if he was a stalker for a split second and I was scared that he wanted to rob me or something. Then later I thought perhaps he was going to commit suicide by jumping so it didn't matter which floor he was going. When the lift reached the 11th storey, I went out first, wondering if he was going to follow me, by pretending to look at my right when I was actually spying on him. Imagine my shock when he followed me! I was damn shocked while I push my key into the keyhole but then I heard the same cranking sound on my right. Turned out that he was my neighbour, this guy who is my age but I've nvr really seen his face before and I've hardly met him for the past 8 years I lived there. I nearly LOL when I entered my house when I recalled what I had been thinking in the lift, ZOMG HAHAHA.
& since I didn't really get a chance to look at his face properly, I guess I wouldn't know it's him the next time this happens! (if it happens again!)
I just can't believe how I let my imagination run so wild, haha.
8:45 PM
ROFL
{Monday, July 12, 2010}
READ THIS:
Hwa Chong Institution started school two hours later for World Cup finale
SINGAPORE: Hwa Chong Institution students were able to catch both the World Cup finals and some sleep by coming to school two hours later than usual on Monday.
The idea was suggested by its student council following an online survey in which 95 per cent of students voted in favour of starting school later.
The student council proposed starting school at 9am by doing away the daily flag raising ceremony and morning reading session.
The proposal was approved. And on Monday students were able to catch some sleep after the Spain—Holland match, which ended at 4.30am, before heading to school.
Although most students were in favour of starting classes later, there were others who felt it was inconvenient because school will end later as a result.
One student, Timothy Yap, said: "It was a feasible proposal because after all students have to get up so early in the morning and they have to stay until 2.30am to watch the World Cup. They won’t be able to focus on the curriculum and their lessons either."
Russell Corr, a teacher at Hwa Chong Institution, said: "I could come into work an hour later and that was great. With Spain winning as well, I’m very very happy this morning."
This arrangement of starting lessons later than usual only applied to those in the high school.
Those in college started school as usual as the students wanted to focus more on their upcoming tests instead of the World Cup finals.
http://news.xin.msn.com/en/singapore/article.aspx?cp-documentid=4214833
I'm sorry but I thought we just finished our tests? Shitass, I laughed damn loudly when I read this, HAHAHAHAH.! & please, we sound like nerds! -.-
8:31 PM
I'm blasting off to the universe!
{Sunday, July 11, 2010}
This has got to be the BEST weekend ever! :)
Yesterday, we celebrated xinyu's bday by hanging out together, 10+ of us and we bought $425 worth of goods from The Editor's Market at Cineleisure.! It was damn fun, trying out all the clothes with the rest and helping each other to decide on what to get. -double thumbs up!- & there was a flea at *scape which was awesomely crowded; loads of things to look at and even bought couple of good deals. :D Music was blasting all day long and people were shouting to attract attention; it was so crowded we were being pushed by the human currents in the afternoon that we decided to get out and head back at night. Good decision made of course, cause at the end of the day it was easier to hagger since the shopkeepers were tired and just simply want to get rid of their goods fast so that they don't have to lug them back again. It's been so long since I had so much fun shopping, yesterday was truly the epitome. :) AWESOME, WE'RE GOING TO DO IT AGAIN AFTER PRELIMS! :)
Today was epic. I only spent $2.20 because sis paid for everything! :D (Y)! I LOVE MY SISTER WHEN SHE'S GENEROUS ALL THE TIME. Hahahs, saw xinyu! and other hc people while walking around in 313 and ion, I think everyone is just crazily shopping after blocks! :D Thanks sis for the wallet, LOVE IT! and for paying everything. THANK YOU V MUCH! :D It's damn good to shop with a sister, I'm so glad I'm not the only child, cause we can give each other advice, share tips, chat endlessly and just shop crazy, plus most deals come in pairs! :) My legs are damn wobbly today, I guess it was from all that walking yesterday and today!
I've decided not to catch world cup tonight, hahas, I highly doubt I can wake up! & my dad says he'll watch it and tell me so... I shall just sleep! :) I'm rooting for spain though.! Speaking of which, it was like a silent war outside today. I kept seeing spain jerseys everywhere I go and people wearing polo tees with 'Netherlands' printed big in front. Singaporeans are secretly fighting and supporting their fav team tonight! Well, I do hope spain wins! :) Cause I don't know anyone from Netherlands, HAHAHA.
7 more weeks to prelims, zomg. Please let me survive okay! Go qianwen go!
9:58 PM
God Bless You
{Thursday, July 08, 2010}
I was at NTUC just now buying some groceries when I saw this stranger, a sixtyish looking man, at the counter carrying quite a few bags of groceries. He was thanking the cashier and when he say me, he started saying oh my and how I was having difficult carrying my items while waiting for my turn at the cashier. Then he asked if I needed a basket and even asked me to place my items at the counter first but I rejected his offer while thanking him profusely for his thought of kindess. Then I asked him if he wanted to pass through because I was actually alrdy creating a space for him to do and he thanked me and said 'God bless you'. While, since I wasn't religious, I just thanked him again.
I guess what I want to say out of all this is that I'm really thankful for the stranger's care when he say me handling milk, yogurt, books, wallet, hp etc. with difficulty (because when I entered NTUC I couldn't find a basket) and his blessing because well, it's the though that counts. I don't know him and he doesn't know me but yet he took the extra step to care and I could my spirits being lifted by just a sentence. I know it's nothing much, but it's good to know that I'm still living in a kind and caring society where acts like this still happen.
Moving on, I am rather amused and disturbed by the bus services. Nope, not talking about the distance fare because I've seen its advantages but more about the drivers. I am not discriminating drivers from China but I think it's really basic for drivers to know the route and if they can't remember the route, they really shouldn't be driving the buses. It scares and inconveniences passengers, although I'm glad to say I've been lucky enough to not have met such drivers. I'm just bringing this up because Today has been publishing letters regarding passengers' personal experiences with such drivers, they are really absurd, and I don't understand why our bus companies are not doing any thing about it.
1. I understand that most of them can't converse in English and it actually puts passengers of other races to disadvantage but I'm still okay with that because I believe that Chinese passengers can actually volunteer to help, it's just a matter of whether our fellow Singaporeans want to.
2. However, I cannot tolerate bus drivers who don't know where to go! I've witnessed it myself when I go home from school. There was this one time a 961 stopped at the HC bus stop randomly and just didn't move at all. The bus driver didn't alight to check anything so there was actually nothing wrong with the bus. Minutes passed and another 961 came. Immediately the doors opened and the bus driver alighted, a China-Chinese, and he went to driver of the 961 that just came to look at the route because he forgot how it is like. Imagine my shock and horror because 1, why didn't any passengers tell him how to move because I'm fairly certain that most are regulars and 2, HOW CAN HE NOT KNOW WHERE TO GO, HE IS THE BUS DRIVER! !!!
3. Jordan, unluckily, met a driver like that this morning. His driver took a wrong turn and called the headquarters to ask for directions. I'm not saying that China-Chinese are bad drivers, but I believe something can be done about this.
I. They can actually go for more training to familarise themselves with the routes before actually driving around.
II. If they are inexperienced, they should not be driving during the peak hours. There are serious repercussions to this; I can alrdy imagine myself being late for school and getting a demerit point if this happens to me. Also, I can imagine even more severe traffic jams on the roads of Bukit Timah.
In the end, there's only 1 point I'l like to make, how can one be a bus driver if one is not familar with the route?! It's like a baker not knowing the steps of making a cake. Absolutely absurd.
6:25 PM
Neurons
{Wednesday, July 07, 2010}
Weird title I know but I find it so suitable for today cause I've been 'electrocuting' everyone today, seriously, don't know why but I think xinyu is a poor dear because I kept electrocuting her, hahas. Toy Story 3 was surprising nice, I think I was damn loud when Buzz turned spanish, just couldn't stop laughing, hahahs.
& I think it's me but people are getting on my nerves today. Don't know why but I'm feeling irritated, really, and I suddenly don't understand why we live in a society of tolerance when it's nvr fair and those we tolerate never stop to think about it and give back in return. & I find that I really hate it when people make comments about me, what they deemed harmless, but they nvr did realise what it really means and they are actually forming a perception of me when its really someone I'm not. It's so irritating and I'm tired of explaining my actions so I've decided that people can just keep on misunderstanding me and I'm not giving a heck because I don't care as long as I'm still myself. It's just that sometimes I feel like shouting who the hell do you think you are to make such comments about me when you don't even know why I do things this way or that way. ARGH.
Today is not a good day, who cares if I'm done with blocks, life continues. Things still haven't changed.
I think the only thing that can cheer me up is Despicable Me's trailer, hahas. It's so fluffy I'm going to die!
9:04 PM
Less than 1 day
{Tuesday, July 06, 2010}
OMG, I'm burning out. Haven't read much except ICS I and II and I don't feel like reading a thing alrdy. It's complacency plus burnt out. Let tmr's paper be easy okay because I really don't feel like reading a thing! :(
9:05 PM
Here's to my future
{Saturday, July 03, 2010}
Read this article in the WeekendToday and I felt like sharing it because I totally agree with the writer. Here's the link! http://www.todayonline.com/Columns/Thefairertext/EDC100703-0000035/Eat,-drink,-man,-woman
So anyway, in a gist, the writer was talking about her big appetite and love for food and how some guys just don't like it when they see girls eating so much just because they can. Well, I for one love to eat and I don't care whether I look like a pig or not; I simply live to eat.
So here's my favourite paragraph :)
"Whatever the reason, I assure you that there is nothing frightening about a woman who likes her food passionately. It means that she has no inhibitions about enjoying life. She is upfront about herself and does not believe in trying to keep up appearances."
Moving on, life after math paper is good although Joleen beat my score in bejeweled! :O Although I know I should be studying harder for the rest of the papers since the previous ones are screwed, I think I'll just forget about them today and enjoy the rest of the night. :) PSC scholarship day has been really informative, now I'm highly motivated to get an Astar scholarship and head to US to study. :) I'm so going to study MUCH MUCH HARDER (Yinhwee please help me! (: ) for SAT I and I'll go for SAT II. Nothing shall deter me, for my heart lies in research and Astar is really the only one that can give me what I want. To quote Dr Nurcombe, "you get paid to do what you love!". & I've also decided to take time really to choose the right university for me. Just like what the person said today, there's 4300 choices, you will find one that suits you.
So yes, go qianwen! :)
8:48 PM
TGIF tmr?
{Thursday, July 01, 2010}
After 4 days of hard core examinations, I'm exhausted. I guess my brain, like everyone else's, is fully saturated with information that they are starting to get mixed up together. & so far, I've yet to finish the whole paper. Left blanks for every single paper so far, it's so unbelievable if you think about how in the past leaving blanks was an absolute horror that must never ever happen. Now, it's practically impossible to leave blanks. Chemistry was the only paper that I felt anguish after it ended, somehow my brain refused to give up on question 1 and I persisted on it, despite not knowing how to do. It's funny how most of us ended up in the same situation, I guess this is how the human brain works.
Surprisingly, I felt calm after bio today cause I really have nothing to say. I doubt studying more could have helped much, sometimes stupidity just can't be cured and not all answers are found in our notes. I'm just hoping for the best for nxt week's paper.
So now, there's math tmr. I decided to sleep my whole afternoon away and start after dinner, which is right now. Then I started panicking a little when I realise there's actually quite a bit of topics for math, I doubt I can finish revising them! :/ But I guess all will be okay, we either die or survive together so there!
Okay, go go everyone, once tmr is over, the long weekend awaits us! :)
8:04 PM
