Life is a maze and love is a riddle♥

Feeling better
{Tuesday, April 27, 2010}

I think I'm getting weaker physically, haven't been running for a week since I fell sick! Plus being sick made me v nua. & looking at my timetable, I wouldn't have time to run for the next three days till weekends come, dang. Cause normally I'll just procrastinate and end up not running on sat/sun morning. So yes, things are getting hectic. Like really really hectic, I can feel the stress despite my constant reminders to myself that as long as I have proper time management I'll be okay. Shall not bore you guys with the details, who will be interested anyway?

NAPFA finally ended, yahoo! It's been ages since we had a proper PE lesson and I can't wait for tennis next week. Seriously. NAPFA was such a bore and 2 weeks before it started we had to train for it, which meant running 2.4km for 2 pe lessons. -.- Anyway, unbelievably, I managed to get A for standing broad jump today, which I guess I should be really happy about but no I'm not jumping for joy. I must thank Ms Woo for correcting the way I land when we went to the gym that day! I think it helped cause I realised if I had continued landing like that my knees will die. :)

I think I'm getting rather emotionless. Really. Things that people can be so high and happy about when they happen to them, I don't feel the same way when it happens to me. It's like I keep telling myself, this is not good enough even though its really acceptable but I don't dare to let myself think its acceptable because I'm very extreme. I'll just end up slacking like some mad ass and sleep everyday without a heck.

Anyway, caught MONGA yesterday! :D Let me go find some shuai ges photos for your eyes, heh. I've decided that Mark Chao is my 2nd idol! RJT will always be the first! :) Anyway, monga was real cool although at end I couldn't stand the killings. Especially watching RJT getting stabbed like Idk how many times. :( Both died in the end! But the movie was quite interesting, really. & RJT can act, seriously. I mean of course, he was excellent in ming zhong, but omg, I was actually scared of him when he first appeared as a gangster? :O

SHUAI DAO...! !!!

Okay, I'm rather sleepy now, I'm thinking of going to sleep for a while before reading a bit of math. Tmr is a long day + math lecture test, I'll need a lot of rest!

Okay, I've decided to sleep, HAHA.

I think my brain ain't working properly now, ta ta!

8:21 PM

Heavy-minded
{Wednesday, April 21, 2010}

I'm sick and this feeling is so horrible, it sucks really. My throat is hurting like crazy and I just want to get well badly because there's 5 items next week and Idk how I'll survive it. I'm just glad 2.4 is over and for all those who have yet done it but is aiming to do well, jiayou!

This week is passing by, once again, in a whirl. Every night I'm not doing anything and I just let my time pass while I try to squeeze into #1 for bejeweled. I fail to do so every night, needless to say. I don't know what I'm doing honestly. I have Maths Lecture test coming up and I haven't done a thing about it, imagine failing it, hah. SATs is coming soon but no actions yet?! (WTH I NEED MY 2200!) and Game On is just round the corner soon? But everything is being pushed into the back of my mind because seasons is here, and winning is more important than anything. I may not be playing, but I really hope to see us in finals this year. I believe we can do it.

First match today with RVHS and we won then by 54-28, rather okay match I guess. 1st quarter and last quarter were the ones I find better, 3rd quarter was the worst? More to come, and I'll be missing lessons. So tell me, wth am I going to do with all that lost time. :(

Why am I feeling so sleepy everyday?
Why do I countdown for every single lesson?
Why do I keep wishing that my weekends will come and last?

:(

I wish good health can be bought.

9:28 PM

ZOOMING
{Saturday, April 17, 2010}

My days are passing so fast, I can hardly catch my breath. Not that I'm doing much over the past few days but it is really time to get things into control because seasons is starting next week and I'll be more than busy.

PW results are out! :D Super happy for my group and the class, all As! :) Hahahs, it was so funny when Mr Ng was announcing the results because before that I told him if everyone got an A can he just shout it out instead of getting us to go up there one by one, which is rather nerve wrecking. Then he called Cassy to go up and kept asking her if she's ready to receive her results until she was so nervous, hahahs. Then he said, "...everyone got an A." Uproar from our class as everyone starts feeling so happy and huggin' each other, gosh, with that amount of hardwork put in by everyone in the class, we totally deserve that A! :D So good job 7G! :)

7G JTS later, :D I hope it will be really fun and I'll try my best to rmb my jnrs' names and faces, haha. I actually know 7P better cause during seniors meet jnrs I was with them, played bball with them before and actually chatted with the whole group before.

QR, when can we have our icecream date! !!!

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

9:53 AM

Compressed
{Monday, April 12, 2010}

Start of a new week and I'm feeling a little stressed already.

#1 So far me and nat has suceeded (& it looks like we're going to continue) procrastinating for game on, its been 2 weeks since we wanted to send our invitations! :O
#2 I signed for SAT! That explains it all, like what yh said today, I must make sure I study hard get >2200 so that I don't waste me time, effort and $$!
#3 SPA is scaring me, well just a little. I actually can't wait to get back my pracs because I want to know how to answer the questions; I just keep having this feeling that I wouldn't know how to answer the questions on the actual day!
#4 I don't know how the future will be like for us. Nough said.
#5 Maths is getting tougher and despite assurance from Mr Ng that DE is okay, honestly, it's still not okay to me!
#6 Haven't gotten present for JTS yet, gosh, I think I'll end up buying the gift right before JTS.!
#7 My econs and bio results will suck, I know it.
#8 Plenty of homework to be done by tonight but there's flash forward in less than 2 hours, oh yes, what am I still doing here?!
#9 PW RESULTS IS COMING OUT ON FRIDAY! :O I'm scared!
#10 I'm feeling very full now and I wonder why I ate so much for dinner! :/

So yes, with all thoughts on flashforward, I must go do my work now! Jo and pear, cheer up okay!

8:09 PM

FUCK LAH.
{Sunday, April 11, 2010}

WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM!?
WTH IS THIS?!
WHAT KIND OF GAME ARE WE PLAYING?!

Bloody stop trying to give yourself excuses for your own actions, we are NOT stupid, we know exactly what you are doing and if YOU THINK it's okay, let me tell you its F***ing not. Why cant' you freaking stop ruining us!
>:@

Hell, you just spoilt my days for the rest of the month and the next.

3:34 PM

I FINALLY...

REGISTERED FOR SAT!

I can't believe I did that. Now I'll have to stick my nose into grammar and vocabulary. Anyway, sis' bday party ytd, it was damn tiring cause I slept late and had to wake up so damn early (530 in the morning RAWR!) to go and sao mu. I'm half daze now but there's still loads to be done. :/ But, monopoly deal is damn fun, MC, we must play it together someday!

10 more days to SEASONS! GO HCNB!

11:34 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...
{Thursday, April 08, 2010}

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QIANRUI,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! :D

I LOVE YOU A LOT GIRL! :D -HUGS- Hope you had a wonderful day today despite the slight bursting of the balloon, hahahs! & we still haven't had our ice cream date yet, zomg! We need to go OUT together.! Hahah! BBFF!

I can't believe its thursday already, my days are passing by really fast but I'm not doing much! Especially my work, :O. Anyway, my GP results suck like shitzzzz but I guess chem was okay, although I never really looked at my mistakes; I expect bursts of exasperation when I see them. There's still biology and econs to get back, gosh, I can imagine how terrible it will be.

Note to self: REGISTER FOR SATS! !!!

I don't know if its hormones or what, but... I'm losing quite a bit of hair these few days! :O

8:42 PM

So yeah, we're going down
{Sunday, April 04, 2010}

It's been quite some time since I was here. Had a good break even though my homework is not completed yet. :X

After going to Cheryl's church party on friday, I finally understood the importance of good friday (God, sorry but it was really like any other random public holiday to me for the past 17 years) and easter! Happy Easter Day btw! So anw, I started questioning the existence of god after the party. I mean, anyone who knows me know that I'm really agnostic, a trueborn free thinker and I reject anything that is illogical. But after seeing how Cheryl and the others truly believe in God and give their everything to him so that he can protect them and give them peace, I'm starting to think about the wonders of a religion and more importantly a belief. No, I'm saying that I'm going to turn Christian anytime soon, heh, sorry, but I doubt that will happen, but I'm thinking about the true strength of beliefs. The event actually made me wonder who and what I believe in. Till now, I am still unsure although I have no doubts that I don't believe in God. Not truly. But I realise I actually found peace when I attended the party and saw them believing in God and praying. Especially after cheryl prayed for me, suddenly I just felt like everything will be okay because of it. Logically, nothing will change. What will happen will happen, no matter how much I pray or how much others pray for me, but inside my heart, I was viewing it differently. Suddenly, I was being more optimistic, like everything will truly be okay. I suddenly found courage to face the future. Like nothing can shake me. What a great power, honestly. Suddenly, I no longer reject religions, perhaps its really worth believing, just for the peaceful feeling to remain in your heart.

I don't know, but the next time I fear anything, I shall choose to believe that everything will turn out okay, I don't have a God, but I believe somwhere out there, there's someone who loves me enough to protect me and give me courage to face whatever I have to face.

So other than my thoughts on God, I'm bloggin' because today my sister said that when June Hols come she'll go running with me. There is a need to write this down because who knows what is going to happen 2 months later, I still dont' really believe she'll go run with me so yes, if she backs out or forgets about it, this is the evidence!

I'm addicted to One Republic's All the Right Moves for now, its has a rather catchy beat and I'm just singing it every single moment, I can't even do my work. :O

FLASHFORWARD tmr, I CANNOT WAIT! :D Actually, its a good thing its on monday night and not sunday night, cause sunday nights are used to chiong hw, like what I'm going to do after I finish bloggin'! A lot of events happening next week, quite excited but I'm not ready yet.! Prepared presents for revealing tmr but that's all. I still have more presents to buy and my sister is having her bday party on sat so yeah, I need to help out too.!

For now, I'll have faith that tmr will be okay, why not? Cheryl asked her God to give me a better monday. :)

10:13 PM