Life is a maze and love is a riddle♥

I will turn myself around
{Tuesday, March 30, 2010}

Today has been rather pleasant I guess, a little tired after H3 but overall lessons were still managable. Got back lecture test and I think we all did better than expected, we got a total of 162 marks together and we nearly passed. Hahahs, my first S! :O But I'm very happy with my results alrdy cause only 18 people out of the 109 got 45 and above. Hahahs, and I'm just nearly there?? I guess. Although Ms Liew said we performed worse than the previous batch. :O

I'm interested to go for bike hike although I'm not sure if my mum allows. -.- But if she does, anyone interested to go with me? :D I think it will be rather tiring but ohman, I just want to experience riding around singapore.!

Slack day tmr, yahoo. I love elections. :D This week is good, love it, no school on friday, so going to plan my day.

Life is still so pleasant. :D

9:53 PM

Life is a-maze
{Monday, March 29, 2010}

I'm so glad I went to run despite the heavy rain! :D Thanks nelson for telling me that its sheltered from salt to the gate, I didn't realise that, but anw, it stopped raining when I came out so hahas. :D

I'm so happy cause I just realised we're missing econs lecture tmr, HAH. :D Although I'm sad that we have to miss PE, but honestly, this is good, because tmr is going to be a long day and we're getting back our H3 Lecture test 1 tmr, I hope the four of us can get 100 marks in total when our marks are added up together! Hahahs.

Got back math paper today, it was okay, kind of expected, could have done better, a few honest mistakes here and there but more of those carelessness and presentation errors. I hate this kind of errors because the results doesn't measure how I perform. I hope the rest of the papers will be okay, kind of dreading econs? But actually I think I'll feel neutral for all papers cause I didn't put in my 100% best.

I'm still wondering if I shld retake SAT, hahahs, I'm so fickle. :/ My mum asked me too, but that will mean studying like crazy once again. I don't like that but... :(

I need to go shopping zomg, got a lot of things to buy for revealing of angels, April babies presents etc etc.! My to do list is getting longer and I'm in no mood to shorten it, dang. :/

Here's to a good tmr, because today has been good, FLASHFORWARD from 10pm to 12mn! :D Please do not cheat my feelings and do start showing episodes that I haven't watched before okay!

8:15 PM

Fresh out from the oven!
{Saturday, March 27, 2010}

A little burnt cause I wasn't sure how to see that it's done but still! :)

9:01 PM

Turning round the corner

With blocks and SCSF finally over, I feel like I'm going into another part of my life.

Blocks was horrid but expected. I can't cry and whine since I didn't put in my best this time. It's over and that's all that really matters. SCSF was rather fun, surprisingly. Despite the uncomfortable blazer and court shoes which I had to be in for 6 hours, it was a good experience because I met a good professor who was really knowledgable and really interested in teaching students. Unexpectedly, we also won something to our surprise since there's only 6 prizes for 25 teams. Yes, no doubt its just an honorary award but still, it brings a good end to my Centad journey.

The end is just the start.

Round the corner, there's seasons, game on, JTSs, STJs, outings and more awaiting me. Another tiring journey to be expected, but fun nonetheless, I'm just wondering when my soul can really take a break before I embark my A level muggin' trek.

Now, I just want to declutter completely and do the things I enjoy. Honestly, I'm deprived. Imagine the gush of joy that entered my heart when I stepped into the library yesterday, chicklits here I come! :)

I like this phase I'm in, not overly joyed, but still I find peace in my soul.

4:43 PM

One strange test
{Tuesday, March 23, 2010}

I gave up.

Okay, what I mean is I gave up. Literally. You see, normally, when I'm faced with a question that I don't know how to do during math test, I will think really hard, scribble my ideas here and there and most of the time I'll figure out the answer. But no, not this time. Somehow, I gave up. Stupid question 10 on integration and I didn't know how to find the area and I gave up. I just started stoning and wishing that time would pass and 1115 will reach soon so I don't feel so guilty for giving up. I don't know why I did it, perhaps its because of the 0% but I think its also because I was so sick of doing maths all of a sudden. & I feel really dumb when I asked yd how to do the question and she explained it to me, it was just that simple. But no regrets, because I know that at that moment, there was nothing to spur me to continue thinking, I was literally brain dead.

Went to get my free cone (A cookie affair!) after that and haha, the person was very funny when I said I want a cookie affair and she said, an affair? You want an affair?!

Anyway, :DDD cause my parents just bought 3 tubs of B&J back zomg, hahas, I LOVE ICE CREAMMMM! :D

I'm very tired now and I really don't want to study chem or bio. :( But I rmbed, just ytd, that there's SPA component for both! Bio will be a terror. :( SCSF is coming, really nervous about it. :/ Now, I really wish my sat afternoon will come soon so I can bake. I've been really distracted by the 'Artisan Bread in Five Minutes A Day' (ABin5) that MC+in-laws gave me. Honestly, I promise I will make bread for you guys because omg, the book is just too awesome. I'm so awed I just kept re-reading it and daoing my math revision, haha.

It's a revolution, I swear.

I'm so baking after blocks! :DDDD I've got a tons of things I want to bake and I've put a lot of tags in the baking books. :D HEH, CAN'T WAIT. It's like the only thing that's pulling me through blocks!

& hmm, I don't know if my angel and cheryl will see this but thanks for the present! :D love the duckie, its so huggable! :D

8:48 PM

Damn cute, haha.
{Monday, March 22, 2010}

11:37 AM

Just hear me rant
{Sunday, March 21, 2010}

Bleh, I'm so dead for tmr's econs I think upon seeing the qnses I will just stone my time away. :( Why is this happening, why am I not prepared, why did I slack, WHYYYY. Okay, shall stop whining, but rawr, wth, if trade comes out tmr (which like obviously it will, duhhhh) I will die so please do not come out as the compulsory qns andddd pls make the questions short, sweet and simple and don't phrase until I have to reread and reread to understand it okay!

Tseyean's sms totally killed me, wth, I don't think I read a single thing about tariffs?! -.- -.- -.- Why is my world like that. >:(

& my maths is screwed I haven't completed the revision booklet, baa baa black sheep lah!

Can next sunday come quickly even though today hasn't end yet? >>>>>:(

7:46 PM

I'm here because I don't want to study.
{Saturday, March 20, 2010}

Okay, another day not spent on studying but I won't say its wasted because I enjoyed my time shopping with my sis and my mum and having dinner together outside cause I think its really been a long time since I last did that? -guilty-

Morning I accompanied my mum to the market and even though the rain kind of spoilt my mood, I still felt happy because of the lovely pratas I ate, the sweet soymilk I drank and of course, the time I spent with my mummy! :) I guess its because I finally have a whole day of sat free and I no longer need to spend my morning chionging theory hw for the theory lesson in the afternoon!

Afternoon I had lunch outside with my sis and mum and we went shopping.! :) Finally got my white shirt (Thanks jas!) and along the way I bought a shirt and shorts. HEH, it doesn't even look like I'm having blocks next week! Speaking of which, DA JIA, do you know that newlook has new stuff and omg they have pale pink plimsoles at $13.90?! What a deal, I swear. So going to check them out after blocks! Then I'll go round sg checking out those stores that sell bakewares too! :)))))

Night: I ate dinner with my family and then watched scooby doo till 930! Bathed and decided to study a little chem but my mum just told me to sleep and study tmr, HAHAHA. So tempting, and that's why I'm here, because I went into my study room and couldn't resist switching on the com. :P -GUILTY-

So actually, I don't know how I'm going to chiong econs tmr because I haven't started on micro and my macro is like shitz as usual. :( But I guess I won't be feeling very motivated because my brain just keeps thinking about the 0%.! :( Why am I so not disciplined?!

Why is my FB so slow in uploading photos! :(

10:44 PM

Tell me why I'm at home
{Friday, March 19, 2010}

So today is the only day I stayed at home to attempt to study and it failed like crazy. I did nothing AT ALL. :( I spent my morning reading Artisan Breads In Five Minutes A Day (I swear its god sent) and 500 Chocolate Delights and then I started researching on baking supplies sold in Singapore now I just want to spend the rest of my time travelling around Sg to explore those shops and find the things I want. So I decided to study in the afternoon...but!

My afternoon was spent sleeping after eating (Idk but I was damn tired omg) then I decided to start on alkanes but I was still too tired so I fell asleep on my bed before even reading half of the notes. -.- Then I decided to study Econs but I switched on the com so I was dling music and all that, procrastinating like siao, then I finally settled down to study. Read less than an hour before those words bored me to sleep again. Idk why but I was just damn tired! :(

So I've been freaking unproductive and I decided to start on complex nos. at 8pm cause maths is the only thing that can make you feel productive but hello world its 930 pm alrdy and I haven't started! :( The 2 baking books are just too tempting, I kept reading them again and again and again! Haha.

& I have to get out of the hse tmr to buy a white blouse for SCSF. Boohoo, why is SCSF straight after blocks?!

So yes, I dieeeeeeeee. Why must we study when we know its not counted and its going to be tough studying won't matter? Oh yeah I forgot, because we're all muggers. :/

Can I just score badly for blocks and my tchers dont say a thing about it? :(

9:23 PM

AWESOME FRIENDS = AWESOME 18TH

Has anyone been waiting for this? ^^

I had an AWESOME Birthday, really wow & I want to thank all my lovely friends for that! :D Spammed wishes, bday songs, presents etc etc LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS! :D

QR & Jing we nvr take photo! :O But anyway, ai si ni men le, I really love the present and the cake was damn nice! QR my bestie your note really touched me, I teared okay! Yes, I think its miraculous that we have each other from P1 until now and we're still so close and we will definitely continue to be so forever and ever and ever and ever and we will celebrate each others' 19th, 20th, 21st!!!, 22nd, 23rd, 24th, 25th .... UNTIL WE GROW OLD and die!

TEAMMATES! Thanks for the bday song, cake and the cute octo with unbalanced eyes haha, love you guys LOADS! I know you guys are so tired from training and all that running but do continue to jiayou okay, just 3 more weeks to seasons and we need to stay strong and be strong so that we can win.! When you feel tired and feel like giving up, just remember that your teammates are also feeling that way but nobody is giving up because we know that the team won't. & in the team there's someone who is working hard for you, so work hard for her/them!

MISSUS CLUB! :D (Heh, I cropped Jonl out HAHA)

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I had a blast at Party World KTV with MC and in-laws! :D I'm really thankful for the present because I know its really expensive and most of you wouldn't be able to understand the supposed wonders of the book. Anyway, I've read it (not all) and omg, its damn cool, I swear. If I feel like it I would post about it, hahas! XIE XIE NI MEN! :D Wo hen gan dong! Thoroughly enjoyed myself.! Thanks for the treat! :D

To all those who smsed me/ wished my HB on FB, thanks! Although I won't be listing your names down because its tedious (heh) but really, thanks!

So I guess being 18 is big. Like there are more legal things I can do. & it feels different too, like I've got more responsibilities because now I have to be even more responsible for myself.

So, THANKS everyone for making March 17th such a wonderful day for me! :)

9:29 AM

Muggin' marathon
{Sunday, March 14, 2010}

So tmr marks the start of my mass muggin' marathon (I love the alliteration!). I've spent my day today doing nothing much, morning was spent rushing down to the bus stop (Minying I will never forget this! Hahah) to head to NUS for their open house. By the time I came home, I was tired so I slept till near dinner time. Up till now all I did was eat dinner, read, watch TV etc. Have to start packing what I'm studying tmr, I'm determined to mug hard for the whole of next week! Even though there's nothing around to motivate me.

BUT... nevertheless!

So yes!

Anyone wants to join me? ^^

9:16 PM

Oh the irony
{Thursday, March 11, 2010}

It's funny now that I recall how last year when I looked at my seniors' blogs and I was thinking why they are barely updated, don't they bother?! yet now I'm just doing the same thing. I guess other than the fact that I can't be bothered, its also because bloggin' is no longer in my top 10 priorities. I just come back as and when I feel like it.

H3 LT today. Wth, I think its stupid, really stupid, to know that you can't do well but still continuously put in the effort to study for it, only to realise wth, you are skipping every single mechanism question (-.- shouldn't even have bothered reading reaction mechanisms!) because your mind is an absolute blank when you see them. 100% fail for sure. I doubt I did enough questions to pass. It was horrible, my hands were freezing yet I had to remain persistent and sit through the whole 2.5 hrs of paper. It's funny how I'm even having doubts whether I'm suitable for H3, when I simply adore the subject.

GP BT tmr. Gosh, it doesn't even feel like it. It's like 930 now but I've yet read a single nut about GP. Miracle is getting a D for tmr's paper. I seriously don't feel like studying. Studying for GP is the same as as studying for H3. It is impossibly inelastic and I just can't get the grades no matter how much I study, I must be really dumb.

Honestly, I just want my weekends to come quickly so I can declutter. My table is a tad messy and my soul is feeling restless, I need to declutter.! Cleanse my mind of all the unimportant details and be ready for the muggin' marathon next week. God, what a sucky birthday month, don't even know if I should take time off to celebrate my bday or not. :(

To be honest, I can't wait for April, although it means another step closer to As. I wish I can manage my time better, but these things never ever happen. Things never go the way you want them to.

So I shall end off here because no matter how inelastic studying for GP is, there's always this saying, 'You reap what you sow'. I better start sowing, I don't want to end up with no crops.

Till then!

9:25 PM

:)
{Saturday, March 06, 2010}

Caught dramafeste yesterday, damn cool, it was a total full house and the performances were better than last year's. Really like Ares' performance a lot, it's like the kind of thing I'll read about in chicklits? More or less. Halfway way through you could hear girls going awww when the main lead spoke. Hahah, dang, his lines make him very lovable. Apollo won though, yay!, cause we're just too good. Which honestly, is the truth. I didn't expect the actors and actresses (especially the mains!) to be so good, they were really awesome, especially the nerd. :) So good job guys!

Oh yes, congrats too all who scored well for As! :) Yesterday was really nerve wrecking for them, I wonder if mel looked at her results yet! Haha. Think she would have. Seeing the seniors getting their results just really scares me, suddenly its seem so tough to get the As because I know they worked really really hard for them. :O Gosh, and As is in 7 months time! :( Suddenly it seems like there's not enough time.

H3 Lecture Test next week, rawr 2.5 hr long, sucks. I'm very scared of flunking it because my concepts are still TERRIBLE. :( GO QIANWEN!

8:18 AM

One of those.
{Monday, March 01, 2010}

Once again, I'm asking myself what I've been doing with the whole Feb. It's ridiculous, spending one month yet at the end of the day I can't answer a simple question on what I've achieved. This month, I am going to make sure I grab hold of time no matter how hard it wiggles in my hand.

My blog is dying, yes I know, but there really ain't nothing much to talk about. School life is mundane and all that usual, it bores me, let alone you. Despite the good break due to HBL, I consider it no break. There's a lot to be done and I have been wasting time (no surprise) sleeping, reading chicklits( Okay, I don't consider this as wasting time) and playing. It's a wonder if I'll even pass blocks. :(

A lot of events are approaching, got to get ready for them, go qianwen! For now, I'll go off to get ready for training. :)

9:35 AM