Life is a maze and love is a riddle♥

Say hello to goodbye.
{Wednesday, December 30, 2009}

FAREWELL yesterday.

Went out of the house in the morning at 930, reached sembawang mrt at 10. After everyone gathered we went to buy food for steamboat at the NTUC, our lunch and headed to Jaime's house, which is really far from school!

Prepared food and went out to meet the seniors. We went to pitstop cafe, something like minds cafe and played from 2 to 6. Went back to Jaime's house for the steamboat, we only started at around 8. Halfway jiaolian came.

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I'll miss my seniors. :(

If I have to use a word to describe this year for us, it must be adapt.

We started out as individuals with despair and little hope but we slowly adapted and became a team. "This team only happens once." How true, because everyone of us contributed to the colours of the team. & the picture we paint changes every year because the colours come from our personality, our character, our goals, our hopes and our beliefs.

Not going to say much, much has been said yesterday, really enjoyed our time together till 12+ at jaime's hse. We'll make sure its not our last gathering. :)

Reached home before 1am, was dead tired but woke up at 8+ this morning cause of some stupid construction work going on outside, rawr.

Till then, seniors.

10:18 AM

Come on, it's yours!
{Wednesday, December 23, 2009}

We had friendlies with NYGH B div team today! Okay, it started really badly and I couldn't see the space to feed in AT ALL. Total shitz. So delayed the friendly from 945 to 10+, the whole game lasted for 6 quarters of 10 minutes. We started with warm up and one team drill (we haven't done it for ages!), but the drill was done so badly we paired up and did passes before going back to it.

Played WA for the first quarter and it wasn't that bad cause it was the first quarter. Second quarter was the shit was suddenly I just couldn't get free, support and become the others' options and half the time it was cheryl and evelyn bringing down the ball with no space for me to enter to help. It was terrible! & NY's WD did a good job sticking close to me, she was really close.

Went in again at the 5th quarter as center. I was damn nervous cause its been ages since I played center and I wasn't confident of my stamina which dropped rapidly after I missed training due to the trip to Msia. Feeding was bad but I'm still okay with my performance because of my defence. Finally rmbed to do 3 feet hands up! Now all I need is make them successful. Yuxuan is going to be my interception idol, one day I'll intercept balls like her! Hahahs.

& I'm proud of the fact that I didn't become confuse when we did area defence in the game. Not bad actually, just that we could have communicated more and look out for each other.

& I got my new shoes today! Asics Netburner VBS 2! :D So chio! :D It cost $125 after discount. (originally $169!) Perhaps a little ex but I didn't feel a thing until jo told me its ex and I recalled that my previous shoes were less than $100. Hahahs, but they are nice! :DDD

So I need to go runnin' more often, especially long runs, TRAIN MY STAMINA! GO QIANWEN GO!

& jing, I got the card! Will listen to you and open it on xmas day! Hahahs. :D

9:10 PM

Living the life I want. :D
{Monday, December 21, 2009}

So couple of days after coming back from Msia, life became busy and will be getting busier!

Friday was spent training and we did area, one of the thing that I really suck at, although I don't hate it. But it was fun to learn about it and we had a lot of chances to play court so its good. Although I sucked like crazy, first training after the trip and I was having headaches just after the warm up. Luckily it got better when someone turned the ventilation on but I couldn't last and towards the end of training the headaches came back again and I was so tired although the rest of the team were perfectly fine. I swear I need to work on my fitness! Then me, fly and nat went for the asics sale at suntec to check out shoes but its really nothing much, hahas. Waited for 190 for 27 minutes (IKR!!!!) just to get home and by the time I reached home it was 8+ like wth!

Woke up damn early on saturday! Reached JP at 7am to set up our booth and learn how to sculpt balloons, it was so enjoyable! :D Sculpting balloons was very fun and a little boy bought my first work, a red poodle with a too long tail, hahahs. Anyway, I had a lot of fun sculpting and watching the faces of kids lighting up when they see the balloons, although it was tiring! But good job everyone! I must say balloon sculpting is such a wonderful skill! :D We had a late dinner at FeiSiong after we sold/give out all the rest of the balloons and I reached home at around 930.

Sunday I woke up later than usual (930!) and I would have woken up even later if my sis hadn't screamed at me to wake up. -.- But it was a good sleep after saturday! Went out in the afternoon, traveling all around getting stuffs for today! Cloth, cake, presents and more. From chinatown, to clementi, to JE, to CCK and finally reached home at 920. Gosh, what a day! Was damn tired and I slpt at 12.

Today was training in the morning and centad in the afternoon, rather eventful! Am glad that hk,jaime and pear like their presents, I had a hard time finding them! Reached home about 4pm and slept till dinner time, dont know how I managed to do it but I'm feeling really awake now!

& yes, tmr will be spent at qr's hse baking! :D Realised I haven't baked for ages and I couldn't, cause we bought so much food from Msia, baking will add on to our 'burden', hahahs. I've been eating a lot and sry but I'm not going to update about Msia anymore, hahas. I think the one crazy thing we did was to buy RM270 worth of chocolates which I'm eating every single day, rawr what happened to losing the weight gained during the trip!

I am extremely full now. ZOMG.

Xmas week, I think everyone is hecking about hw, hahas, so shall I. This week is a week to celebrate! :D
Okay, shall go relax now, hahahs.

8:19 PM

How true
{Thursday, December 17, 2009}

Just saw this on jing's blog, have to reblog(hahas) it cause its so true.

I think that's what's wrong with the world;
no one says what they really feel, they always hold it inside.
They're sad, but they don't cry.
They're happy, but they don't dance or sing.
They're angry, but they don't scream.
Because if they do, they feel ashamed and that's the worst feeling in the world.

So cheers to all those who can cry when they're sad; dance and sing when they're happy; scream when they are angry.
For they are the only ones who truly know how to live.

11:12 AM

Mixed feelings
{Wednesday, December 16, 2009}

I don't know why but the moment I stepped out of Msia I've been feelin' restless until now. I think its because I'm back to reality, life in Msia was slow paced and all I had to worry about was whether I left anything behind accidentally. It was free, easy and the joy of shoppin' and sightseeing just envelopes any possible negative feeling I would have.

But coming back to Sg, though I must say I missed it, is making me a little :(. Perhaps what we all need is a little break from reality but nevertheless we can never escape it. It is back to the pile of things I left behind without turning back and with every attempt to reduce it to dust, I must say I'm still failing to do so.

I'm starting to reflect, perhaps a little too much, and its making me 'sick' because when I lie on my bed in an attempt to rest my body and soul, words and thoughts starts forming in my minds, fighting for authority and it just feels like a train going into a dark tunnel, you never when you are going to reach the end but you know you want to get out asap because the darkness just feels a little too creepy.

I've been thinking about what I've done with the 17 years of my life. They say time passes faster as you get older and I must admit it is true though logically not so. I believe it to be the gradual lack of appreciation of time as it passes. What is 4 hours on the computer now as compared to an hour of watching the television when you were young? What is staying up late till 12pm now since you can as compared to staying up till 10pm because your parents let you, just for that one night? I'm feeling a remorseful yet stubborn about my realization of how unappreciative I am of my holidays. I know its wrong to waste my time away, especially looking at how I longed for these hours during school terms, but nevertheless I still stubbornly choose not to spend them wisely. Sometimes I get this feeling I never did learn what is discipline, despite that hard lesson I had when I was 12.

Then because of this lack of time management, I never seem to do what I aim to accomplish, even simple little things that can be done in seconds. It is meaningless for me to list down the things I want completed simply because its logical to do so, my heart and soul must be poured into it. So I'm just hoping I'll be in the mood tmr, I've specially cleared my table just now.

For now, I'm curious if anyone can give me the answer I need for this question:
Why is it that what we become in the future is never what we wanted to be in the past?

P/S: I hope my sister blogs about our trip soon, I just want to take hers, modify and repackage into mine, hahas.

11:14 PM

I'M BACK! :D
{Tuesday, December 15, 2009}

I think I gained a couple of Kgs after this trip & I'm going to gain more from the whole lot of food we bought! RAWRRRRR! :(

Shall give a brief summary of the trip, I'm tired & there's CENTAD early in the morning tmr!

DAY 1:

Woke up damn early, had breakfast at home and then went we reached Msia, we had breakfast again. Lunch was at a chinese restaurant and the food was nice! :D One long bus ride with me sleeping and reading till we reach Ipoh where we had our dinner at some chinese restaurant again and then it was check in and SHOPPING! :D

Okay, I can't rmb day 2 details, have to look at the camera so I'll contd tmr! My sis is a total camwhore so yeah, we have a lot of pictures.
But anyway, I've decided to turn into a vegetarian for the next few days, you'll know why soon enough.!

& OMG, I HAVE PENANG TAU SAH PIAH AT HOME NOW I'M DAMN DAMN HAPPY BECAUSE I LOVE PENANG TAU SAH PIAH.!

P/S: The translated version of the above means the next time you go to Msia you must buy tau sah piah for me! :D

Ohman, damn tired, okay, off to bed.!

10:28 PM

I love this feeling
{Monday, December 07, 2009}

Today was spent totally on cip at nyjc.

I had a lot of fun, seriously. This is way better than holding a can and standing at orchard road, with various attempts to get people to donate $ because its for a good cause and having those looks returned to you or suffering from the smoky air, having the probability of getting lung cancer.

Helping those parents at nyjc to find the textbooks they need is really a good experience. This is probably the only time for me to see so many unused textbooks at one go and so many parents trying to find the textbooks in the booklists. No doubt these textbooks have been used before, but the feeling that they are going to be put to good use when you pass the right textbook into the hands of these parents makes you feel like its the right thing to do. Could have done it all the way. Perhaps its the feeling that since they took the initiative to find their textbooks in the numerous piles in the canteen, you feel like these textbooks will be greatly appreciated and you can even see how grateful they are when you help them to find the textbooks they need.

So good job cip reps! (:

But sadly, demand is never = supply and I've got my fair share of disappointed faces when they can't find the textbooks. It's really sad to tell the parents that we don't have a certain book, especially Animal Farm. For every enquiry for animal farm, I'll think of the copy I have in my cupboard now, how I should have donated it out because someone out there needs it more than me.
So yes, I'm going to donate whatever books I can starting next year. As long as my cousins don't need them and I don't want them.

& volunteer my time again too! I don't mind waking up at some godly hr just to reach nyjc at 7.

So here's telling everyone, donate your unused textbooks, cause trust me, there is someone out there who needs them more than you. By doing so, you are helping to educate the next generation.

3 more days to Msia, needa start packing soon.!

& rawr, I promise myself I'll do my hw tmr. Hearing about those book reviews (OMG!) is stressing me out. I need to relax before I head to our neighbouring country.

& I'm really sry but HAHAHAHAHHA, NETBALLERS YOU'LL CRY IF YOU SEE SMB. Freaking school is subsidying bodyworld trip so it will only cost us $6 if we go with them?! HAHAHA.

Okay, not funny.

:D

10:19 PM

Anyone?
{Sunday, December 06, 2009}

Is anyone out there interested to do hw with me for the whole day on tuesday! :D

10:48 PM

:D after :D
{Friday, December 04, 2009}

Honestly, life is great. Perhaps its because I'm enjoying every single thing I do. :D

First up, NETBALL OUTING! :D

Had lunch at the xinwang hk cafe at coro, which replaced the new york new york that I hadn't even been to!, with them and then we walked to zl's hse for our movie marathon + nail painting! :D

Hahahs, we started with nat's new moon before we realised how pirated it is. HAHAHAHA. So I guess cheryl got the last laugh!

So we switched to orphan and when Jaime suggested it, everyone was like okay cause I think we were all thinking, its okay I'm watching it with the team, everything will turn out fine but HAHAHA, WTS, halfway through the movie we started wanting to curse jaime, kept asking each other why we agreed to watching it. We ended up screaming like mad and qy, liyi and zl were hiding under the covers lah, ZOMG. I swear it was the longest movie ever, we were thoroughly traumatised and since hk watched it before we kept asking her whats going to happen, who's going to die etc. but she couldn't rmb exactly! Rawr, I swear my heart became weak after the movie. Hahahs, I think it was damn funny when we thought it was going to end alrdy and then when we confirmed it with hk, she said "I think there's still one more part". The groans started coming and (@#*!)%*!%*) WTH LAH, ESTHER IS FREAKING SCARY, RAWRRRRRRRRRRR. Although I think its better than horror movies because there are no ghosts, just a tad too thrilling.

So we had to watch How to lose a guy in 10 days, to relieve the immense stress on our heart. It was quite nice, funny and sweet. Hahahahs. Then we caught What happened in Vegas while painting our nails. Pear and HK are epic, seriously. After I showed them my collection of nail stickers they just went wild with it, hahahs. & hk's nails are seriously !!!!! Left hand has a wide range of different colours while the right has an alternate of electric blue and jade green. Pear's blue nails are really nice! Rawr, went to find the nail polish just now but I couldn't find it. :/ P/S: MY BUNNY STICKER DAMN CUTE RIGHT! ;D

This morning started out with me waking up at 630 for centad. WE FINALLY STARTED OUR EXPERIMENT, after preparing the materials all these while. Hopefully the results will be good when its back from NUS, cause HC has no GC.

Then training in the afternoon and it was FUN TTM BECAUSE THE SNRS CAME BACK! :D I LOVE THEM! :D I finally understood how they felt last yr when they saw their own snrs back. :D & we played 5 quarters of 10mins, in different positions. I played, WD, GK, GD?, C and IDK what hahahas. DAMN FUN! ZOMG ZOMG! :D Honestly speaking, its been a long time since I played court but this has got to be the best. I felt really relaxed and even char commented that I look better, perhaps its just the lack of stress. I was really pressured to perform well last time but this time I'm more confident in my passes and runs so yeap, I'm a happy girl. & It's nice to know what I've done better and what I have to improve in every training, it feels like I'm keeping record of my own progress and that's really good. I'm no longer a confused player on court with nowhere to run and no guts to pass.

I owe this to the team and the never ending encouragements from the snrs, especially mel. :D I LOVE YOU MEL! :D

So now with immense joy in my heart, I shall start being responsible and on task tmr, for now, its just me and criminal minds. :D

Bon Voyage Jo! Buy me sth nice okay! :D

Just a week more to Msia!

9:04 PM

> HAPPY! :D
{Wednesday, December 02, 2009}

YAY! I'm damn excited about tmr! :D Netball outing for the whole day! Yes yes, movie marathon + nail painting, hahas can't wait! Even though I think nail painting is like for the minority of us, only me, hk, fly, jo, pear and jaime will be interested most probably, dk abt the jrs! & we're going to zl's hse which is supposedly damn big?! :D YAY! :D

& training today was not that bad. Running was okay, and I had fun doing court stuff although I'll really wish to practise more. Like wayyyy more. & I'm going to master faking, rawr! Shall aim to be as pro as sharon in faking. I always believe her when she looks like she want to pass to me, but she never does! Damn good faking!

I think we're all going to end up with superb abs by seasons nxt year. We're doing abs every training and we do even more during gym. Rawr, I think its perma abs ache le. But I swear we're improving! :D We can last longer for 2010 now! (: Wonder if its possible for us to get 6 packs. Hahahs.

Note to self: Go training with a happy mindset, do not be happy only after running.

Hahhas, I swear it will never work. Everytime we receive the sms about meeting at the track, we just want to faint straight. But Ms Lin is right, since we can't escape it, why not embrace it with a smile huh.

ME & QY ARE OFFICIALLY NOT GOING FOR BODYWORLD TOMORROW, HAHAHAHA. :D
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Okay, I know you guys will miss my presence but I'll make up to you guys I swear! xD

9:30 PM