I like singing myself silly, meaningful lyrics, red, baking, smileys, cakes, rum & raisins, taking long walks, observing people, reading, change of heart, baby blues, running, making new friends, lying down and watching clouds go by, chatting with friends, traveling around singapore, eating good food, glass jars, daisies, swings, daydreaming, going to places I've never been before, the smell of rain & anything pretty.
No splash
{Thursday, October 29, 2009}
OP tmr. :/ If there ain't any OP I would only need to go to school in the afternoon for econs.
I wonder how many people will be going for swimming. Anyway, I don't mind going to see the doctor and missing biology and pe. Watched GATTACA before and there's nothing important happening during PE. Hahas. Ren Syn told me today that her class had 2 terms of swimming cause every week nobody swims, or only a few does so. I just hope we don't waste our PE lessons next year, so please do not give us swimming again!
Today was so slack! Econs was boring, not interested to know why I didn't score. Biology was our last lesson and well, I'll definitely miss Mr Ngoh and his gossips. Hahahs, heard that we are most probably getting Mrs Sim, my biology may improve but I hope I can work well with her? Maths was spent watching I am Legend which most of us left halfway for lunch. Hahahs, quite interesting really but knowing that the guy will die in the end half makes me not want to finish watching it. Stopped till the part where Samantha, the dog, died.
Then dialogue session, which was better than expected. At least there were people asking questions voluntarily and Minister George Yeo kept encouraging to study in overseas universities if we have the chance to do so. Was wondering why no one asked him on his take on current issues like smoking etc.
Then it was home and my bed. Had a good 2hr nap, woke up to eat dinner and here I am, all bathed and ready to start on my I&R, practice OP (MEMORISE SCRIPT! :/), settle application for H3 etc.
Training tmr and its friendlies at NY. :D I like!
Okay, its past 930, time to start!
9:19 PM
Festival of Sports
{Tuesday, October 27, 2009}
FOS was damn fun. I swear. :D
Okay, so Apollo didn't win first for anything but so what, everyone (I mean all faculties) put in their best, put up a good fight, displayed good sportsmanship, & really, that's all that matters.
Basketball was fun. The feeling is just so nice, people that don't know each other (okay, for some) coming together to play for the faculty and we all tried our best. :D
I think the scores were, Ares 15-10, Athena 4-12, Artemis 2-22.
Best match got to be with Athena cause Eva was fighting so hard and it was damn challenging and competitive. Then we had to defend by not letting her get a chance to go in and put the ball through the hoop or/and prevent her from doing layups. I must say eva put up a good fight! (: & she's so funny, suddenly apologised to me on msn about ramming into me, cause well, I can't really rmb the ramming part? Just rmbed times where I was following her closely to prevent her from getting through.
& when we were playing with Artemis, Cassy suddenly went on form and her first 4 layups were all successful.! :D
I think best of all is getting to know new friends. (:
So, Good games guys! (:
& I'm not swimming on friday, I've got the PERFECT plan. :D HEEHEEHEE! After days of brain racking, trying to think of an original and more unique excuse other than the usual, oh my time of the day, pon school etc.
I hope training doesnt start so early tmr, got tag briefing at 2!
& I must get ready, cause its fitness tmr and I hope we don't die like what we do usually. ! Nat and fly, I hope your ankles recovery real quick and oli, get well soon!
Okay, I wonder how many people will be at training tmr.
Time to do PEEDOUBLEU!
9:33 PM
VBALL
{Monday, October 26, 2009}
I love playing volleyball.
The irony in the above sentence lies in the fact that 4 years ago in NY, I was harping over the fact that I got a freaking big bruise from volleyball tryouts and I swear that I hate vball so much, I'll never play it.
Things always change in few years time. For all you know, 2 years ltr I'll love purple and hate red, but for now, its red ftw. (:
Stayed back in school and stoned,wasted 3 hrs stoning from 1 to 4 cause there was no chem lesson and supposed bball training for FOS starts at 4pm. But at 4pm, there were only me, lili, yuanyi and jacklyn. -.- So we played a while and stopped cause there was no point. Joined the vball team instead! Gosh, I really love playing vball and today was especially enjoyable because there were rallies, unlike normal pe lesson. I'm not saying 7G is bad at vball, just that I was playing with vballers and people good in vball so the matches were naturally more exciting. & Kristie taught us new stuffs. I'm regretting a little for rejecting kristie when she asked me to join vball for FOS cause I was in bball first. & now we only have 8 people left cause 2 jumped to netball and 2 jumped to vball! RAWR. So I shall be a good girl and stay at bball cause I'm needed.
Wondering how we're going to survive tmr with 8 people. Totally not enough to sub people in?!
Anyway, I'm looking forward to tmr cause of FOS. So exciting! (: I think our vball team has a good chance, but for bball, I've got nothing to say. Hahahs, and netball is hmmmm. Hahahs.
OMG THEY MODERATED THEY MODERATED, MY MSG JUST GOT LOWERED, HOHOHO. I LOVE BIO TCHERS NOW! :D
Speaking of which, I will stay sensible. It's okay to get sucky results for econs (ie E for econs) because I'm still promoting and I'll still get to go for H3. Although I'm getting a bit high cause with moderation for bio, my overall results look really nice? :D (Except for econs of course. -.-)
9:23 PM
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
{Sunday, October 25, 2009}
SCREAM 09!
The trail was pretty cool and we started damn slow cause jo kept screaming and we walked/crawled damn slowly. I think horror movies are scarier cause you don't know the people but for the trail it was okay cause you know they are just councillors trying to scare you. Got a bit confused over who we're supposed to find, Jenny or Jason?! Cause half the time we're asked 'you're here to find jenny?' and half the time we're asked 'you're here to find jason?'. Near the end I asked the "ghost" aren't we supposed to find jason and then it was damn funny cause he said, "I'm jason." so I was like oh okay. HAHAHA. Quite fun though! Sitting at the central plaza watching horror movies with the rest. Mass spammage of screams when scary parts came out. They showed dark waters and alone. Missed most parts of darked waters but watched the whole alone EXCEPT for the scary parts cause I've watched it before and I know where they will pop out. Okay, so technically I didn't catch much of alone too. Hahahs. I don't like horror movies.
I've practiced this for hours gone round and round And now I think that I've got it all down And as I say it louder I love how it sounds Cause I'm not taking the easy way out Not wrapping this in ribbons Shouldn't have to give a reason why...
It's No Surprise I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
It came out like a river once I let it out When I thought that I wouldn't know how Held onto it forever just pushing it down Felt so good to let go of it now Not wrapping this in ribbons Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow There's nothing here in this soul left to say Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow God know we tried to find an easier way Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go The warm embrace that no one knows The loving look that's left your eyes That's why this comes as no, as no surprise
If I could see the future and how this plays out I bet it's better than where we are now But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow I can't believe that I stayed till today Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
The kiss goodnight, it comes with me Both wrong and right, our memories The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep Our favorite place we used to go The warm embrace that no one knows The loving look that's left your eyes But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Time to go, PW! Yes, we're going to do our WR for the last time and we will perfect it!
8:54 AM
A step too late
{Friday, October 23, 2009}
They took down the econs results for promos before I checked it on ISP. I know my actions are ironic, seeing how I feared it during school and didn't dare to look at it at all even though others were doing so.
So I guess I'll still be able to react naturally upon receiving my results.
Nothing much to blog about, just that I badly want to get well so that I can scream for scream, be ready for FOS, go running and most importantly, TRAIN. I want to go to the gym.!
& life is full of ups and downs, but currently, I'm near the peak.
Sometimes I wonder is it right for one to tell the whole world that he or she is happy when the whole world ain't. I don't understand what's wrong with that. & if there is nothing wrong, why is no one doing it? Especially if the derivation of one's happiness is not caused by the deprivation of theirs. Then somehow it makes you all weird and cranky because you have to be abnormal to be normal and you can't be normal because its considered abnormal.
Okay, one whole chunk of crap.
At the end of the day, I just want to get well soon. !
To all those who didn't get the results they want, don't worry, nxt year's the most impt and you've got a year's time to prepare. To all those who love their results, congrats!
& to all those who are just glad they get to promote, you guys are the only sensible ones. Hahas.
9:25 PM
See, I knew god won't give us perfect days.
{Wednesday, October 21, 2009}
F. F. F. F. FML! WTS, SWIMMING LESSON NXT FRIDAY, F LAH.
& I was thinking I'll be lucky enough to not get swimming at all in my 2 years in hwachong. Then poof, one message on SMB was all it takes to push me down cloud 9 and bang, my bum is still hurting from landing on the hard concrete floor.
Like WTH?!
I mean if anyone knows me, they will know my fear for swimming. How I hate the deep pool, as long as the depth is longer than my height. & I'll give anything for the chance not to swim. I'm just going to PON PON PON and go to school in the afternoon for training. HAH.
Like WTH, I don't even know where's my old swimming costume and whether I can actually fit into them? It's been ages since I last swim!
Will aquaphobia be a good excuse for sitting out for swimming?
WL eh, okay I hope I suddenly fall sick on thurs nxt week and then on fri I can't go to school cause I have to see doctor. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
& to think I was so happy today cause I was a good girl! & my mum said she's glad I'm mature enough to think this way. Cause I decided to see the doctor after having a sorethroat and cough for a week and to save cost I went to the polyclinic (I think its my first time). Gosh, private clinics are really sucking money from their patients, like they are not sick enough, they have to add on by giving expensive bills. My normal bill is $41 and today I only spent a third of it at the polyclinic! The whole process lasted for only an hour and it included me walking around at the start, asking people on what to do, waiting outside room 22&23 while watching numbers jump randomly, having a gay doctor to examine me, walking into the pharmacy, not knowing where to get the queue no., walking out to ask a nurse I spotted, walking back in to get the queue no. etc.
Worth it, because my last experience at the private clinic had me waiting for more than an hour for the doctor. They said the doctor will reach at 1030 and he came at 1130 and I still had to wait for my turn?! I hate it when doctors aren't punctual, I mean they'll never known when an emergency may just happen!
& althought the doctor at the polyclinic is really so gay, I had a hard time trying to laugh when he speaks, he is a good doctor because he told me specifically what I was suffering from and gave advice on what food to eat and what food to shun, unlike my previous doctor, who's one and only addition question other than asking me whats' wrong with me is whether I'm pregnant or not. & he asked me if I needed an MC, I said no but he gave me one anyone! (:
So yes, if only the date of the MC can be changed to 30 oct, otherwise its just a lame sheet of paper. Well, unless I want to stay at home tmr and watch criminal minds instead of stoning in school till 4.
I hope the medicine works miracle so I can go back to training on friday. RAWR.
Okay, my mum just agreed to let me pon pe but she didnt agree to let me pon school! HOW TO WRITE A PARENT'S LETTER LIKE THAT! D:
Byebye I shall watch another episode of criminal minds.
OH YES, FOS NXT WEEK, EXCITING! :D
P/S I figure I need to be an extra good girl for the next few days so that she'll agree to let me pon school nxt friday.!!!!
7:17 PM
Learning
{Tuesday, October 20, 2009}
Today I realise that not having the choice to choose is worse than not knowing what to choose.
11:05 PM
Don't know why
{Saturday, October 17, 2009}
How can anyone be in a dilemma for things that have yet to happen?
Just read up on H3 subjects, I'm interested in the NTU organic synthesis and mechanism and the school's H3 pharmaceutical chemistry, but taking them means missing training once a week for every week. :( see, the list of people who can apply for H3 aint even out and here I am stuck in a dilemma. :( That's why I hate knowing what can happen in the future.
First training since Idk when yesterday and it was horrible. My attitude sucks and I need to build up my mental power. I don't know why I can't be consistent. I'm always at both ends, sometimes I exceed what I can do, surprising myself and others, and other times I go under so horribly people don't believe what I just did.
Why am I not giving it all?
Somehow I think I understand why, its a mixture of fear and disbelief that pulls me away from my goals but yet many a times I wonder why I let these grey clouds loom over me, why I don't take out an umbrella or run for shelter but just stay under it, waiting for the raindrops to fall. Other times I'm sitting there and wondering, what the heck am I doing.
Like what Ms Lin said, what matters is focusing and completing the training with a proper attitude and now stop just because we're tired. It's more about the mind then the physical soul. I feel like punishing myself for not pushing myself harder but there's no point because what's important is whether I'll try my best the next time.
Time to prioritise and focus on what I have to do. PW, netball and centad. Yes yes, I can do it.!
9:45 AM
What is this?
{Thursday, October 15, 2009}
I don't know how to describe this period of my life. What is it? It seems so surreal that I feel like I have all the time in the world, but the actual truth is, I don't. Things are coming in, there's training tmr, centad on tuesday, pw spammage everyday and what not and I'm falling sick. But hell, I'm still in my daydreaming mode. Someone pull me down from the clouds before I fall through.
Anyway, I feel so sorry for No. 5 because although he is no. 5, he will always be no.2. :(
& I'm happy that slpover is at hazel park, wts wts, I can just walk there, its like a choice between my bed and sleeping together with my classmates and I don't have to fear that I lack time the next morning or what not. What can I say? Some things just fall in place.
TRAINING tmr. I'm scared, but I guess I'm not the only one. Slight muscle aches around, but I know I'll survive. :D We all will.
TAG Interview tmr, hahas, wts, I don't even feel like going. Form not filled, and I can't think now so I'm going to do it tmr. :D
It's 1050 alrdy, my classmates are still chatting happily but I want to sleep alrdy.
WQ, rmb what I asked you today? IT CAME! Hahahs, guess I was right!
P.S. We tried out our AIKIDO skills on the boys today and wts, they are too strong to be pushed down. AHHHHHH!
10:44 PM
Onegaishimas
{Wednesday, October 14, 2009}
I think today is way more fun than yesterday! :D
Never knew AIKIDO is so interesting, I honestly believe its better than other forms of martial arts because it doesn't require any strength but yet you can just take on anyone simply with a little twist, turn and push. It was damn fun learning how to attack molesters, thieves who want to kill you, how to prevent yourself from being strangled. I mean, you never know, you may just end up in a dark alley one day and having someone holding a knife to your back. So what do you do, you turn, twist, push, disarm and sit on him. Hahahas.
& let's not forget the cute senpai there! :B He honestly look like the guy from home alone 1,2,3 and he was such a poor thing cause he was the one getting attacked all along and he had to roll here and there, but I guess the flipping part was really cool. :D Hohoho, I bet yh is jealous he demonstrated with me for one of the moves. HAHAHAHA. Okay, shall shut up here now. :B
Anyway, I'm going to send my kids for aikido lessons next time, IT'S SO USEFUL! Even though I believe I've forgotten half of what I've learnt, but try me, hahas, you may just end up on the floor wincing in pain. It's really damn cool, cause you either break your wrist, elbow, spine etc etc. You can absolutely break anything. HAHAHA.
Dang dang, school starts proper tmr, PW mass spammage. Wonder if I can handle it. :( Okay, shall play awhile before sleeping, today's really tiring.
9:58 PM
It feels more lyrical.
{Tuesday, October 13, 2009}
HIPHOP today was ______________. :(
I guess I didn't get what I want? Anyway, to all those doing it tmr (hint hint jo) be prepared cause the chereo isnt the fast proper normal hiphop, its freaking R & B. Uh huh, you heard me. :( Suddenly wished that I had joined street jazz instead. D: Felt like the lyrical hiphop we tried last time except it was slower, easier so I guess less fun? Cause even though the lyrical hiphop session was so freaking fast, it was at least FAST. Hahahs.
& let's just skip straight past the performance, HAHAHA.
I feel like everything just felt apart. :( A little lost cause I don't know what I can do now. Stupid sorethroat, I think that's why I'm feeling so (@%@(%!(!. *#%^@ now. Aikido tmr, I'm feeling like its the school holidays now and there's no PW, no results to come back, no netball, no centad no nothing.
Sometimes people stop talking because they realise that the people around them? They are all hearing, but they never once did listen.
11:17 PM
What did you see?
{Monday, October 12, 2009}
Just watched the first episode of flash forward, it's damn interesting I swear. How everyone saw a part of their future but after that there were a lot of mixed feelings. Those who saw the good part of it wants it to happen, those who saw the bad part pray for changes and those who didn't see a thing hoped they wouldn't die so soon. See, its scary to know your future, perhaps thinking about it is good, but knowing isn't, even the good parts.
I won't want to know how happy I would be in the future now because I'm pretty sure by then, I wouldn't feel the same amount of joy and I definitely wouldn't want to know what are the terrible things that are going to happen in the future because I would constantly live in fear, which is worse than fearing it at the moment it happened.
So catch flash forward, it's really interesting.!
& I'm sad cause I spent my whole morning trying to find a place to watch season 2 of pushing daisies, in vain. :( :( :( :( :( So if anyone knows where I can catch full episodes of pushing daises season 2 please please pretty please tell me? Thanks.
Going out ltr, ;D
11:36 AM
Life's good? Nah, Life's GREAT! :)
{Saturday, October 10, 2009}
Life is great I swear.
Caughty 500 days of Summer ytd, do not watch it if you're a romantic like me. They blatantly tell you the truth about love and shatters any possible dreams you have of your prince charming in your fairy tale.
So far, I've...
Cleared my table! (: Removed ALL the stuff I was reading for promos and organised them properly, filed and shelved. :) Now I'm so happy because I can see my table top. :)
Started on Jodi Picoult's Change of Heart. It's been great so far, really interesting, especially since I'm interested in crime and punishment and the starting was about whether to have a death penalty for the murderer or not. & I'm glad I finally took it out from the cupboard 10 months after buying it. Like finally!
Viwawaed to the max! (: Those who are playing/going to play, ask me to play with you okay! (:
am downloading some songs from angela's new album. OMG OMG, SHE'S BACK AFTER 2 YEARS OKAY! I've missed her! SO HAPPY! (:
BAKING TMRRRRRRR! :D
9:38 PM
I'm here because I don't wanna study biology. :(
{Thursday, October 08, 2009}
AHHH! Last paper and I'm burning, okay I'll get back to transcription and translation in 7 mins time. I'm so sick of reading my notes and I'm only halfway through? I think I can just go to kap and join yh there alrdy. -.-
:(((( ESSAY QUESTION WILL SUCK. :((((( I don't want to memorise anything. My storage is full, zero capacity! :( Pls come out some easy essay qns like on translation & transcription instead of GOV or GOB because I havent start on them yet. :(
I read my notes and my brain just keep telling me, 'you sure they will test you this?!'
I CANNOT RMB A THING LAH, WTS. Why is biology memory work.! :(
I think the only thing I can score tmr is MCQ cause there's 25% chance for every question!
& I hope they let us draw genetic diagrams cause they usually have a higher weightage and just draw draw jiu ke yi le! :B
CONTROL SUCKS, PLS DO NOT COME OUT CONTROL ON ESSAY, PLS PLS. TY
Okay, see I'm so mad from studying biology, I'm getting incoherent.! :(
OKAY, ONLY 13 MORE HOURS TO FREEEEEEEEDOM. YES YES. GO QIANWEN GO!
GO 09S7G GO!
PLEASE DO NOT TELL US TO DRAW FRUTOSE, MALTOSE, GLUCOSE, SUCROSE, GALACTOSE, LACTOSE. THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME TO ME. -.-
9:22 PM
Every year I'll miss it somehow.
{Wednesday, October 07, 2009}
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY IRENA!
2:23 PM
I AM SICK OF STUDYING.
{Saturday, October 03, 2009}
Can't wait for everything to be over.